Thursday, September 02, 2004


i feel obsessive complusive. i want to be friends with him because it will show me that i'm not that kind of girl. unreponsive so far. what can i do? become a stalker? i mean, all i want is for my esteem in my own eyes to rise to the top. i guess it's out of my hands no? the friendship isn't for me to choose and if i feel cheap and bad, it's probably because i am cheap and bad.

could we not be friends?